Rebecca’s Ramblings

life is so busy these days! but every now and then I need to get back in the game, I guess…

This just came through on my Rod news list…

yeah, let’s beat kids until they are bruised and bloody. THAT will motivate them to learn….

As Jaden says…’Jesus says not to hit. It’s not kind.’

I thought I’d put up a VERY bright and cheerful Valentine’s theme.

Enjoy!

but thanks to the gentle nudge from Punkie, I’ll blog on this one again.

And I’ll share something I just got on the PTAVE list today:

A bill has been sponsored by US Representative Ed Markey to ban the advertising and sale of devices to whip and beat children in the US. This bill needs co-sponsors to get it moving and voted on.

So, please write to your US Representative!! Enter your state & ZIP code at this Web page. Then click “Contact My Representative.” You will be taken to your Representative’s homepage where you can contact them. Here is a sample letter you can use:

Dear Representative ________,

I am your constituent, and I am deeply concerned that it is legal to sell devices in the US specifically for whipping and beating babies and children. Rep. Ed Markey is sponsoring a bill to ban the marketing of these devices. Please co-sponsor this important bill to end the advertising and sale of these devices.

A law is needed to end this ugly and dangerous business for good. Please lend your support to this worthy endeavor. Rep. Markey’s aide, Jeff Duncan, is working actively on the bill, and can be reached at (202) 225-2836, or Jeff.Duncan@mail.house.gov

I look forward to hearing from you.

(your name)

I’ve called my Rep! Now go call or write yours!

My nearly 3yo son disappeared this morning and got very quiet. As all mothers know, that’s enough to strike terror into your heart!

So I went running and looked for him.

He was curled up in my tatting chair, with a ball of size 10 thread and a size 5 needle.

He smiled up at me sweetly, and said “See, Mama? I was just using dis piece and dis piece and I wind it wike dis and den I put my fingers here and I make a piece just for YOU cause I WUV you!”

what did I ever ever do without him?

more like the middle of fall. I’ve just been in denial about it!

But it’s dipping below freezing at night. Right now, it’s noon and the skies are dark…it actually looks like snow clouds out there. BRRRR!!!!!!!!

And in a month I’ll be the proud mother of a 3 year old! I’m really having a hard time with how fast this year has gone by.

Why is it that sunny fall days invigorate me, and cloudy days depress me? I love cloudy days any other time of year…but today I just feel sad.

Time is passing by so very fast…

My dh has a cold sore on his lip. He was working in the woods today (doing his CO work.)

So Jaden ever so gently rubbed dh’s cheek and said very matter-of-factly: “Daddy has wip owies, Mama. He was workin in da woods and he saw a moose and a deer and a bear. And den a shark jumped up and bit him on da wip.”

Next week, we’re going to learn the difference between oceans and forests. Right now, it’s just too cute.

Every joint in my body is aching. My lymph nodes are swollen, my head is pounding, and I’m less-than-patient with my sweetie boy.

Delayed reaction to all the stress, I think.

It helps to have a little guy who will throw his arms around me and say “I just love you SO MUCH, Mommy!”

Today is dh’s first day back at work, and so Jaden is de-stressing from that too. He keeps asking me “Daddy coming home today? He not going to the doctor?” My reassurances help him for an hour or so, then he starts crying and asking the same questions again.

LOTS of talking about feelings today from both of us, complete with a class A meltdown from me when I spilled my coffee. *blush* Jaden said “What’s WRONG, Mama?!” and I explained that I was angry because I knocked over my coffee, and I should have tried saying “I am so frustrated that I spilled my coffee!” instead of the screech of anger I let out.

A few minutes later, I heard “ARRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH I AM SO ANGRY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AND THAT’S WHY I’M SCREAMING” come from Jaden as he got stuck on Nick Jr.

Sigh. This being a good example thing sucks sometimes.

I figure we all need an extra dose of Grace this week.

when I was so HAPPY for an ulcer…even a bleeding one

I am so very relieved that my dh does not have heart problems. It would have been a drastic life change for our entire family…his career is not one that he can do if he isn’t in top physical condition (other than an ulcer, I guess!)

The prayers were appreciated more than I can say - there are times when we simply can’t pray - too numb, too shell-shocked, too scared. It was a blessing to know that we were being upheld by others.

Today is the first day Jaden goes back to Sharon’s after staying there for two days. He’s experiencing a lot of anxiety over it :(. I have 4 shoots to do today, though - some MUCH needed funds after paying for gas, hotels, parking, and food for nine days. Thank God we’ve no medical bills from this too!

Off to take my little guy to play with Ryllan and Belle…

With my husband being in hospital, and not knowing for sure what’s going on. And I’m away from Jaden for the first time ever.

I’m scared, and I’m lonely.

And I will lift up my eyes to the hills, from whence comes my help. My help comes from the Lord, the Maker of Heaven and Earth - and of my husband’s innermost being.

I was sure by now, God You would have reached down
and wiped our tears away,
stepped in and saved the day.
But once again, I say amen
and it’s still raining
as the thunder rolls
I barely hear You whisper through the rain,
“I’m with you”
and as Your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise
the God who gives and takes away.

Chorus:
And I’ll praise you in this storm
and I will lift my hands
for You are who You are
no matter where I am
and every tear I’ve cried
You hold in your hand
You never left my side
and though my heart is torn
I will praise You in this storm

I remember when I stumbled in the wind
You heard my cry to You
and raised me up again
my strength is almost gone how can I carry on
if I can’t find You
and as the thunder rolls
I barely hear You whisper through the rain
“I’m with you”
and as Your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise
the God who gives and takes away

Chorus

I lift my eyes unto the hills
where does my help come from?
My help comes from the Lord, the maker of heaven and earth
I lift my eyes unto the hills
where does my help come from?
My help comes from the Lord, the maker of heaven and earth

Chorus