Rebecca’s Ramblings

when I was so HAPPY for an ulcer…even a bleeding one

I am so very relieved that my dh does not have heart problems. It would have been a drastic life change for our entire family…his career is not one that he can do if he isn’t in top physical condition (other than an ulcer, I guess!)

The prayers were appreciated more than I can say - there are times when we simply can’t pray - too numb, too shell-shocked, too scared. It was a blessing to know that we were being upheld by others.

Today is the first day Jaden goes back to Sharon’s after staying there for two days. He’s experiencing a lot of anxiety over it :(. I have 4 shoots to do today, though - some MUCH needed funds after paying for gas, hotels, parking, and food for nine days. Thank God we’ve no medical bills from this too!

Off to take my little guy to play with Ryllan and Belle…

With my husband being in hospital, and not knowing for sure what’s going on. And I’m away from Jaden for the first time ever.

I’m scared, and I’m lonely.

And I will lift up my eyes to the hills, from whence comes my help. My help comes from the Lord, the Maker of Heaven and Earth - and of my husband’s innermost being.

I was sure by now, God You would have reached down
and wiped our tears away,
stepped in and saved the day.
But once again, I say amen
and it’s still raining
as the thunder rolls
I barely hear You whisper through the rain,
“I’m with you”
and as Your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise
the God who gives and takes away.

Chorus:
And I’ll praise you in this storm
and I will lift my hands
for You are who You are
no matter where I am
and every tear I’ve cried
You hold in your hand
You never left my side
and though my heart is torn
I will praise You in this storm

I remember when I stumbled in the wind
You heard my cry to You
and raised me up again
my strength is almost gone how can I carry on
if I can’t find You
and as the thunder rolls
I barely hear You whisper through the rain
“I’m with you”
and as Your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise
the God who gives and takes away

Chorus

I lift my eyes unto the hills
where does my help come from?
My help comes from the Lord, the maker of heaven and earth
I lift my eyes unto the hills
where does my help come from?
My help comes from the Lord, the maker of heaven and earth

Chorus

I have to tat 9 more hearts before I go to bed tonight.

If I’m lucky, I can turn them out in 15-20 minutes each. That’s still a lot of tatting!

But I promised them to a friend as gifts. Sometimes I really over-commit myself!

Or maybe it’s just that I really don’t manage my time right? I’ve known I needed to do these for two months. Have I done them? Nope. I’ve done a million other things instead.

*sigh* It’s just that I work so much better under pressure…I wonder what that says about me?

There’s so much going on, and I feel like I’m always a step behind.

It doesn’t help that I have insomnia, so bedtime has been getting later and later.

2 am, 3 am, 4am….

Today my husband let me sleep in, so hopefully I’ve reset my internal clock!